A Welcoming Note Regarding Avoidance

If I tell you that I’ve owned this domain and unpublished website for a year, will you judge me? (It’s okay if you do. I ‘ve certainly been judging myself about it!)

It’s funny how I can know in my best mind that it doesn’t matter, but still found myself avoiding dealing with the blank page of my website for 51 weeks in a row. It was only yesterday when one of my two creative partners joined me for a coworking session in the sunshine to work on her website that I faced up to it. And you know what? It’s taken hours, but it hasn’t taken nearly the toll the 12 months of avoidance did.

I’m sure that, like me and so many others, you can identify with simply not pushing through the resistance of beginning. If you really have a lot in common with me, then you probably have ADHD too and can deeply understand the struggle of knowing exactly how to do something and putting it off until it simply cannot be put off anymore; the reason I finally made the leap on this project was that both of my creative partners mentioned it in the past week. And next week? My subscription to Squarespace was due to expire. The time has come.

Deadlines really help my brain commit to the work and just make magic happen. Self-imposed deadlines are harder to manage. But you know what? I’m realizing that there’s really only one deadline, and that’s my actual death. So what do I want to get done before then? Because I’m on the clock. And my work comes straight from my heart— I know it sounds cheesy but it’s true. This career I’ve cobbled together for myself feeds my soul. I deserve to follow through on my projects, and I deserve the kind of trust in myself that carries me through the struggle.

So, today I’m premiering this website. Welcome! I hope you learn a little about who I am, the work that I do, and the incredible gratitude I have for every single moment of peace and happiness I get to experience in this lifetime.

More soon.

xo